Saturday, May 1, 2010
Memorable moment in life, one cannot comprehend! do you question your true feelings??? hmmm sushi, red wine, your favorite dish, prepared just for you..... okay welll my mind is doing 90 in a 20.. not knowing what to think or feel... you zone out as if nothing exists you ask yourself what is your being...i guess this is what blogging about, if you are what you say you are, as lupe says..... and yes im a superstar. I will bare all on tonights blog, for the few followers i have this is my testimony so you are the first to witness... wow it feels like church...get it (witness, testimony) but hey here goes....I am a great guy but im scared...scared of comittment, but i dont think its committment but more so choosing the right one!! does that make sense!? as I reflect on the book The Conversation, specifically the first chapter I wonder.....I guess Im suppose to be like most guys and doing what they are doing this evening, however Im NOT, I wonder why....Okay I wont bare all maybe just this little bit....OUT
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You are right you are a superstar...and a super star makes his own way and don't do what everyone else expectS you to do...you are where you are suppose to be tonight and you don't have to be afraid if that person you are committing to have your best interest at heart and is willing to commit to you 110%...if it was easy everyone would be doing it but only a blessed few get to feel true love, true commitment, and a true connection with someone created just for them. So embrace your feelings and know it is scary but everything worth having is worth getting over that fear and just walking thru the door to receive whats there waiting for you...only you...So ask God for deliverance from that fear and ask Him to show you who He created for you and you can't go wrong..but I think you already know...AGAPE LOVE!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteWell MelB I actuallyn enjoy being alone, one finds there true self with times alone,I tend to go againest the grain of what "the average man" is suppose to be entertaining. As far as the fear I think that doesnt exist, fear is a state of mind, but choosing the right one is and emotion as well as a emotional decision. I am so open to that decsion! However I am afraid that the other person has actually put in the same time of thought as I.
ReplyDeleteLife is about choices... I mean isn't that why God has granted the opportunity of free will? Now we must be prayerful in the choices we make because if we don't listen to His voice and direction we are bound to make the wrong decisions. We as humans are guilty of willful ignorance, which can cause problems. We are also guilty of doing our own thing, which may cause us to stray from the plan He has laid out for us (my personal fear), but sometimes God uses those opportunities for us to learn discipline; discipline in our relationships, friendships, interactions with others, other dicisions, etc. So with this learned discipline God also allows us to learn from our past and other's mistakes. It is in these quiet times that we are able to understand what He is saying. If you have discernment, devotion, discipline and you pray for His will to be done what really is wrong with committment? LOL Easier said than done right?! Although Mr. Harper is spitting knowledge in his work, what he does best is provide for dialogue or conversation, which is one of the problems we face. It's ok to be vulnerable and have a conversation about what intimidates you... through this vulnerability you may be opening the doors to discernment, devotion, discipline and even dependancy. Don't see it? Well, let me try this. We all have to take responsiblity for our roles in unhealthy relationships. When we realize that we cannot be perfect, but rather only who God has called us to be while making our own decisions we realize that we NEED each other to survive. Our survival is grounded in holding each other accountable, being vulnerable enough to express needs, setting boundaries, etc. It's not easy, but the rewards of building something that will touch generations to come is AMAZING!
ReplyDeleteIs it your true desire to be in a committed relationship since you enjoy spending time by yourself? Often times in life we are so scared of the potential outcome that we don't allow ourselves to take the journey. The journey will be one filled with joy, excitement,pain and growth. You have to ask yourself is that something you are ready for, being scared is a natural. Also what makes one the "right one"?
ReplyDeleteFirst and foremost, I believe it truly starts with prayer and a strong spiritual connection. Here's a twist to your perspective Renovatio. Imagine meeting someone who stands out from the rest. Someone you've met briefly once in the past only to meet that same individual for a second time months later. Through your negative experiences with the opposite sex in the past, you finally surrendered, dropped to your knees and prayed for God to send you the "right one". You were sure to be specific, even asking God to make it clear as day when this person comes a long. With each encounter it hits you like a ton of bricks that this person standing right in front of you exhibits those traits and characteristics. You don't even have the words to describe the feeling because it may not seem logical to the next person. Even more frightening is the fact that it may not seem logical to the person involved. In that case what do you do? Although you say fear is a state of mind, it is very real for some people. Things can be so "right" but our fear is sometimes what makes it go wrong. Do we listen to our head (fear) or our heart (love)? What to do when you know but the other person...may not?
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