Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Spiritual Love Making

Your spiritual relationship is one so powerful, I listened to a song that was called falling in love with Jesus and it brought tears to my eyes, I find myself to be quite emotional these days. I believe that with things are at its lowest or its highest one becomes emotional, these peaks are the determing factor of who you really are. For instance when one reaches that peak of riches, what they do with there money tells who they are, and many cannot handle their trueself, they change and some commit suicide, its one in the same when you are at your lowest financially, you can deal with your circumstance and look at the small things and appreciate and depending on how you embrace the situation determine your emotional stability, and the low may have the same result which may be suicide. When everything is A okay so is our emotions, we are comfortable.

Well I am all 3 at this moment in my life and the only thing that I can change is my spiritual to allow me to understand and embrace all 3 and grasp myself. I am a Christian and who ever reads this knows the stuggles of being such, especially if you know you have a calling to do something great, I am emotional because I know my greatness. I am currently rich with Peace and broken with love but I am comfortable with knowing its only for now and the only way I can find peace and love together and be comfortable is through me falling in love with Christ.

Growing up in a two parent household I have embraced Strong Love, covenant, strength, committment, understanding, affection and what marriage really is, my mom and dad, was the true example of what I want. Once anyone sees that and grow up with that all around them thats what they long for, and I am beond longing for that. Until my dad passed he taught me to love your wife, be strong and committed and my mom taught me that affection, vowing, and understanding is key through it all they both taught me spiritual love is what gives you patience, and the true love in a marriage. I understand this completely and as I listen to this song on repeat right now I know i have to first marry Christ before I can take that vow to someone, I have to first fall in love with him, make love to him show him the committment, patiend, understanding before I can do that for someone else or even embrace it from someone else.

My spiritual relationship is something I am building, my foundation is strong, solid but the structure is being built slow and not with the correct labor and tools, I want to get a new contractor and rebuild the structure and today is that start.

I am a very optismistic person like seriously positive, not much gets to me but I know what GOD has for and i pray that the person that he has for me can do more than just give me positive words but grab my hand and get on her knees and pray with me, where we can connect spiritually, that is an positive feeling that cant be created by the brain, but something beyond understanding....

I write these post as a journal and I wonder if i shouldnt, but it is theraputic because I type faster than I write lol and my brain goes a thousand miles per hour and I sometimes cant even understand what i wrote lol who ever reads this pray for me and I will pray for you. My GOD BLESS ME and YOu and he allows us all to reach that complete spiritual love making with him !