Seperate/Friends....

Today my life as changed, you never know how people affect your life and until you seperate yourself from them. Friendships, homie lover friends, relationships as a whole changes your life. I believe we all have to be careful on how deep you allow someone in your life, im not saying be gaurded or scared all the time but for the first time my feeling we hurt!! I said wow, I think that men are more logical and less emotional however in retrospect we share the same emotions as a a woman. I am not understanding the need of friends at times, I am a firm believer that as long as I have family I will be okay! Honestly I have very few friends I mean very few, however I have more than a ton of associates and homies but a group of people I can call true friends...... ummmm less than 5. I guess this post is a vent, I am seriously now reminiscing on one of my old trues friends and how we grew apart upon becoming adults, ask yourself about your track record with friends or how close you let someone to become a friend.....

Memorable moment in life, one cannot comprehend! do you question your true feelings??? hmmm sushi, red wine, your favorite dish, prepared just for you..... okay welll my mind is doing 90 in a 20.. not knowing what to think or feel... you zone out as if nothing exists you ask yourself what is your being...i guess this is what blogging about, if you are what you say you are, as lupe says..... and yes im a superstar. I will bare all on tonights blog, for the few followers i have this is my testimony so you are the first to witness... wow it feels like church...get it (witness, testimony) but hey here goes....I am a great guy but im scared...scared of comittment, but i dont think its committment but more so choosing the right one!! does that make sense!? as I reflect on the book The Conversation, specifically the first chapter I wonder.....I guess Im suppose to be like most guys and doing what they are doing this evening, however Im NOT, I wonder why....Okay I wont bare all maybe just this little bit....OUT